Change

Why do people use an external change, for example scenery, friends, or hairstyle, to affect an internal change?

What makes internal change so difficult but external relatively easy?

I don't have the answers.

I am searching just like you.

Continuing the story of A

It became too painful for a long time and simply stopped but I think it is time to tell the rest of the story. I will try to make it part of weekly practice as I don't think I can make it daily. Please forgive me.

Dream 9

Three of us at some sort of psychology group chat with a therapist. The therapist is fuzzy, not sure if man or woman but feels feminine. The lady between me and a dark skinned man tells us a story of loss. She is also indistinct expect for her blonde hair. It's not clear who she has lost but her voice clearly shows her to be in pain. The dark man consoles her with a story of his son. Turns out his cultural upbringing makes it hard for him to emote but he makes an impassioned speech to the lady. The therapist is still fuzzy, not reacting, but the blonde lady sniffs and seems calmer. My nose begins to bleed and suddenly I am walking on snow leaving a red trail behind me. I wake.

Dream 8

Walking through endless corridors, looks like a school, I'm looking for someone but can't find them. No panic, just lots of walking. Others are also walking. Calmly but all in the same general direction. Then all in the exact same direction. I'm still looking for someone, a girl. But I never find her. The school looks familiar, like the elementary school I attended but a thousand times bigger. Finally I feel like I'm nearing the exit or some sort of end but I still haven't found the girl. I wake.

Haiku 9

back from the deadly
society suicide
rat race, avoided

Haiku 8

sparrow lives and breathes
like an arrow speeding down
to pierce the earthworm

Stupid Wedding Songs

Went to a couple of weddings recently and was struck by the main dance songs chosen by the couples.

All I Want Is You by U2, Every Breath You Take by The Police, This One Goes Out To The One I Love by REM?

Have these people ever actually listened to the words to these songs? WTF.

Question For The Day

Education today, the state of teachers, what parents need to do to ensure children have a good education and what does "good" education mean exactly.

Is rote learning, learning by example or matrix thinking the best solution?

Are letter or number grades better than more amorphous or non-existent grading?

What are school boards spending time on political discussions rather than teaching children how to think and why they think a certain way?

Is it too much too ask?

Haiku 7

noise making music
beat the drum quietly now
stop now, ah, music

Haiku 6

attempting haiku
is like grasping clear water
with a mind shovel

Haiku 5

sun dappled apple
slightly out of reach, beyond
even the winter

stays high above the
ground frosted fingers that try
to exceed their grasp

Haiku 4

silverfish crawls on
back of envelope towards
a just reward, splat

Hey, I didn't say they would all be good!

Just practicing here and also freeing the mind.

Haiku 3

leaves float then tumble
awakened by season's call
feed withering heart

Haiku 2

alone, in the dark

paranoia grows like wild

cliches run amok

Life During Wartime

Uh,Oh!?!

The Void

Falling asleep, I am scared of the void.

In deep sleep, I no longer fear the void though I am in it.

Waking, I am scared of the void.

Cookie...Mmmmm

Enough seriousness for one day.

I don't really like fortune cookies...What does it all mean?!?

You Are a Fortune Cookie

You're a rather normal person, except that you have extraordinary luck in life. People want to be around you (even when they're a little sick of you), in hopes of being lucky too!

What Kind of Cookie Are You?

No Vision

What the hell. We might just as well ban people from the freaking planes. Wouldn't that solve all our problems?

Please...people in charge...understand the problem, test solutions, fix the problem.

Repeat as needed.

A Thought

The distance between two points is the size of a metaphorical heart.

A Way

It bears repeating, as many times as necessary, like a mantra.

If we realize that suffering is what we have when we desire, then perhaps being content is a counter-action to desire.